I'm sorry I'm lying... I'm sorry for crying... I'm lost in my head... In this deep dark sea... Don't tell me it'll get better... Don't say I'm fine... I'm drowning in the darkness... Unable to turn to the light... Like a black cat in a shadow... Like the sun at night... Unseen and forgotten... Stolen away from the morning light... Why do I exist again? ~Me I'd happily lie to shield people away from the truth- Me My life is a constellation Too tightly tied I want to be free I want to touch the sky But I'm bound to these stars as the moon is to the sun These clouds are star catchers They catch diamonds from my eyes They will fall Let them fall Let them know my pain Don't wanna survive to the next day Like a moth to a flame I want to follow the light but a string bound too tight pulls me back Dragging me back to the darkness tight, pull, tight, pull I'm choking on this sorrow I can't quite swallow It's like I'm diving deeper and deeper but the world gets further and further And I'm lost in a world I can't exactly follow Buds nipped before they bloom Moon waned before it was full Cups filled but then empty Where did they go? What did they see? This mask that I'm wearing Are like these Sunshine and Rainbows The moon and the sun Something to keep smiling on and on I want to fly higher then the sun Touch the clouds in the sky But I'm bound like a chain bird Unable to hover even a foot above the ground A step and a hop is all I'm allowed A foot by a foot is where I am bound One day I'll escape the mockingbirds Or maybe even never But oh well, I'll smile until the end of that ever. I'm mentally ded. I thought I was finally emotionally ded but no I still suffer from this illness called feelings- Me
