╭── ⋅ ⋅ ─────── ✩ ──────── ⋅ ⋅ ─╮ Hi gang we’re gonna have an art dump and a chat again let’s go art first though cus most of y’all are here for that and not me yapping 1. 2nd poster of 6 is done yayy, I'm getting these done brutally slow </3 2. AF attack on PikasaTV, doing the pose/anatomy on this fella was fun :) 3. Birthday gift/attack on my goated friend @ConureBirb 4. Attack on Vallerrae on AF, this one was relaxing to do but I dislike how thick I made the line art (especially on the face) but oh well 5. Attack on crowletz on AF, didnt have a lot of energy when making this so I’m not very proud :,) Ok that’s all for the art NOW FOR THE YAP So to sum it up: I’ve been busy, my mental health is deteriorating at a concerning rate, and I plan on leaving soon. If you hadn’t noticed, I haven’t been active on Scratch. I’ll post once a week, sure, but I’m not browsing anymore and I’m largely not responding to comments other than what I deem necessary. I don’t enjoy being on Scratch, quite frankly. It’s draining, I have little to no emotional connection, and I mostly just dread checking my messages. On top of that, I have been EXTRAORDINARILY busy. I work every single day at a physically and mentally exhausting camp for 7 hours, I go home, and I have posters to make for the upcoming artisan market, schoolwork to get done that I’ve been putting off because I’ve been so tired and busy, and responsibilities around the house and to my own community. All of this is putting a huge strain on my mental health. I’ve been crying nearly daily, my depression has been overwhelming lately, I’m mentally and physically overworked, and I continue to keep pushing myself over the edge every single day. Yesterday was the first day I really got hit with reality; I could not for the life of me keep it together during work and I ended up hiding in the bathroom sobbing for about 2 hours on the floor. What’s funny is that not a soul noticed I was gone until I came out 2 hours later and went back to my peers, only to get interacted with once and start breaking down again. My supervisors talked with me and recommended I start seeing a therapist again, and they talked with me about stress and depression, and frankly they were right. Im doing too much, I’ve committed myself to do too many things, I’m depressed, and even so, I’m inserting myself into my friends’ problems because I’m too empathetic. I can’t handle my work life, school life, art life, and my friends’ ongoing trauma while keeping myself mentally stable. It’s not working. So forgive me if I’m not active while I fight my own head every single day to just get myself to work and function like a human being. It’s just exhausting. I have 2 or so “main” projects left that I would like to complete: - ’s DMCE/animation meme - guide on getting popular on scratch While I get those done, I’ll also be posting weekly art dumps. I would like to leave on August 3rd, but I don’t think I’ll be able to get my animation meme done before then so I’ll likely leave sometime in late August. This account was never meant to last long, and I’m surprised it’s lasted for as long as it has, but it’s run its course and I need to leave. If you’ve read this far down, I appreciate it, I know most of the people who looked at the project didn’t bother. ─────────────────────── ᴄʀᴇᴅɪᴛꜱ ↴ Art - Code - Time - week timespan App - Procreate Audio/Song - Helium by ENHYPEN ╰─ ⋅ ⋅ ───────── ✩ ─────── ⋅ ⋅ ─╯
