do you also ever feel too tired to do anything??? or feel really really bad when your friend wants to hang out, but your really homesick??? and you don't know what to do, and you want to go home, but you don't want to dissapoint them?? or maybe your still thinking about that time and old friend from the term just before you said that he/she/Idon'tevenknowanymore was gonna off themselves multiple times and you didn't know what to do and had panic attacks??? are you guys also getting really really really sucky teachers for this term?? or your excused as just being lazy because you don't feel like doing anything, or your mother just says "your due" when you genuinely feel like curling up in a ball and crying yourself to sleep?? and you know your probably overreacting because your tired, but everything is just so overstimulating?? or how everytime you genuinely struggle, no one tries to actually help in a way you understand?? or your a horrible friend and family member because even though you love these people with all your heart you can't do anything to comfort them but say "I'm sorry", "it'll get better I promise", or hug them?? or maybe, you want to draw something, and you just can't, because you either don't have motivation to do anything or it frustrates you?? or your so hypocritical sometimes?? or maybe, sometimes you cry or get mad over something as simple as a wrong hairdo or getting yelled at?? or people make fun of you for being gay and no matter what you do, you can't get it to stop?? or maybe sometimes you do something, and feel like a horrible, horrible person either?? or that one friend that said he/she was gonna off themselves found a new friend group and you felt so tired for weeks and weeks because you tried to so hard to get them to find a reason- any reason -to live and let them talk about anything they wanted to you, only for them to go to a new friend group and pretend we don't exist with the message "I'm sorry I was friends with you [name] you deserved better then a manipulating person like me" even though I chose to be friends with you, even if it was only for that short amount of time???? or maybe everytime you stand up for yourself, you get yelled at by a teacher, even if the kid is in the wrong?? or no one ever believes you about the group of girls and boys making fun of you and your friends for you and them, from your looks to your very trauma?? or maybe that one teacher who doesn't even try and gets mad and sends you out when you say "no" because they expect you to follow everything they say, but they won't even TRY to send out or give excuses to the boys and girls yelling across the room when you and other people are overstimulated??? or maybe, the girl you thought was your friend tried to kick you out of your friend group even though you've known your best friend for longer, but thankfully you can still sit with them?? or maybe, you don't get in trouble when you shut up and sit there quietly, doing what everyone wants, because your just a stupid little people pleaser?? and then sometimes, your own body doesn't even tell you when it wants food or water until you NEED it?? and then, when you sleep or eat you realise your overreacting, but you can't help it because everything and everyone is just too much at that one moment?? or maybe, you hate the sound of children crying because it makes you feel ill to the bone, but not in a vomity way, in this weird way that makes you shake and hug yourself and walk away??
