TW: SMALL AMOUNT OF BLOOD (PINK) AND SCARY FACE :D btw the red writing is me the grey is my friend (won't be saying their user or name) "Heh, yeah I'm not doing alright" -V murder drones if you are wondering, I would like you to know I'm completely fine and you do not need to worry, feel free to talk. (context) so I've been friends with them for a long time now, well past 2 years. (prob 4+ years now) and recently on 6/16/26 I had asked how long of a break we needed from each other, she said forever and followed up with a sorry, I did get my reaction on video but later deleted it because it was just me sobbing for the next like 20 minutes and typing at rapid pace hoping for a second chance, because I know that the stress I caused them was a lot more than I intended, I'm not good with emotions and especially if they show emotions toward me..(if I don't feel the same) but I said I felt the same so I could perhaps strengthen our friendship (I was a bum and an idiot okay.) but I didn't feel the same way and they got closer I lashed out way more out of fear. I realized this when they said "forever" and I'm deeply sorry that I caused our long lasted friendship to end. one thing that struck me as annoying wasn't just me. it's how they said they wanted to focus more on becoming "rich" doing whatever they want. being rich is a great thing but it also just--I don't know it's not something that I like hearing people say it hurts me so much- </3 they also said they were waiting for me to change. babygirl..that ain't how relation ships work in the first place. you don't look at someone go which trust me I tried for a long damn time and it "yah I like em" and then proceed to tell them that they need to change. which trust me I tried and it never worked out the way I wanted it to. bc I realized that damage I caused, but trying to change myself just got me more angry at my stupid choices I had made. which is the main reason I lashed out all the time bc I got anger issues or whatever BITE ME -Uzi but other than that, the decision they made is healthy. if I'm ruining their time for focusing and whatever. leave me. status update (mostly if they see this) I've made a great online friend in Roblox and we're getting along really well, we look forward to talking each day and we're into the same stuffs :3 (tadc, murder drones) we're pretty much the same age and we both goof off and laugh. glad I'm not alone in that. and I'm glad we both know we have someone we can stand up for, and make feel better. giggle. I'm so naughty. -cyn for anyone wondering about the blood (Tw) it's mostly bad dreams I've been having that I don't think scratch will let me deeply explain. can't tell if it's dreams or something else *rubs chin*
changelogs made: 7/20/26: added rant/vent on what the meaning of this project is, it can be located in the instructions. (im okay don't come for me I beg lmao QOQ) all ts feels like the two time and azure lore in forsaken I can't breathe </3
