! I am not saying my experience is ANYTHING like Mizuki's! I am using lines from commissions because of the lyrics being relatable and I'm not the best at wording things ! So I have always after around 5th or 6th grade felt like something is off about me compared to the rest of my friend group at school. FYI, we are all Christians. My beliefs are a bit different! I don't view LGBTQ+ as a s1n! But back to what I was saying. I have noticed they have all had crushes before, experiencing what people said and carved in our minds is something needed to be happy. I didn't. But then, I learned a term. Aroace. That's when I knew, but, kept it to myself for a while. It felt like the distance was growing. I thought they might think it is fake (they know I do shipping), I'm confused, or just Aph0bia in general. But I told 2. One seemed chill, but the other felt off. She said she was relieved I was not gay... but that sounds a bit h0mophobic or rude in general. So it worried me to tell the rest. It feels like the distance grew more. I am funny tho, so I need to seem like I am perfectly with them. Together. I want us to be together. But they probably would never see me as legit. Just confused, s1nning, terrible, embarrassing. Here are some translated lyrics I relate to because some things I can't easily put into words: So would it be OK (be OK?) for us to stay this way? Remain in pain which will you choose? I just wish that we could stay like this... Running away or turning a blind eye, which is more valuable in the end? It feels like I'm s1nning cuteness wont erase that... Its slipping, its slipping, Its falling, Its slipping One secret, that's all it is... This is not me, I'm sorry. There is nothing I can say... It clings to my face... Songs: IDSMILE - Toa, Kitty - Tsumiki, BAKENOHANA - Nakiso. All Mizuki commissions, please don't go after me. They just have a few relatable lyrics for me. I will pray for you!
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