Haii my wonderful pookies! Hope ya all are doing well. Well uhh... sorry but I might post not as much now because I already have a lot of issues in real life. It might sound stupid but uhh... Its actually kind of deppressing for me (dw i aint dying). Well recently my mother has some sort of health issue and like she gets really sick and gets admitted in the hospital. My grandma has come from my village to where i live to like look after us (me and my sis). My mom and my grandma hate eachother a lot and often fight and guess who becomes the target between... ME? ME OFC I have to comfort both of them because them think my dad is not taking their side and my dad tells me to check on both of them; I hate my grandma genuinly nowadays cuz like.. she is badmouthing my mom for FAKE reasons at my own face and she never appreciates me. when i was 8 years old i LOVED to dance and love her but the amount she has fatshamed me for just being overweight of 3 kgs and being healthy or slightly chubby on the hips is diabolic and i am insecuse of dancing now and she keeps on telling my parents "What a shame ur eldest daughter is so fat and she doesnt dance" Like she litrally is badmouthing me everyday to everyone even I heard my mom say that she talks bad about me all the time and complains :0h ur daughter was on her laptop ofc that buffalo has nothing else to do; and my dad always think i am doing bad stuff online when im not. And what about school? they have nothing to do... term 1 examination wanna hear how many chapters in total? 98 chapters. and they are so stupid 10 days in exams and they are still giving us 5 chapters to write like I am tryna calm myself by gaming but dad oh my god. nobody has that much trust on me? I cant get any sleep too, since last 12 days My bed has somehow got some typa bedbugs while shifting and my sensitive af skin actually swells up but nobody hears my crying in pain or i stay up till 4 completing notes and I have to sleep on the couch where its soo hot that I am dripping in sweat and i genuinly go to sleep at 3 And its not like i do nothing... i do half of the chores. I do laundry make snacks and breakfast i do dusting i teach my sis i manage both our school works i do watever my mom says i help her cook i never say no but i am never enough am i. Uhh bai i dont want ya all saying "oh my god im so sorry that happeed to u" i just want to hear i love u :)
