I’ve drowned myself in this. I can’t let go of this, I keep holding on to this, and I can’t stop thinking about this. So you guys all know my… hyperfixation right I think it’s to the point where it’s gotten VERY very bad. I physically cannot stop thinking about these two grown men that may not even be friends anymore that don’t even know I exist. I have cried over them 3 times now and also I made a playlist dedicated to them. I’ve seen every compilation people have made of them and I just can’t quit thinking about /them/. Even my mom has noticed something’s up with me and she knows it’s because of these two… I know she does. I literally talk about them all the time I’ve literally fallen into depression and it’s only because of myself, taking their friendship too seriously. And I just can’t let go. I don’t know what’s wrong with me cause I’ve done this before, this is the 2nd time. I don’t care if people make fun of me. Also I’ve been so hard on myself about this but it’s weird cause it doesn’t feel like it’s… me saying those things Idk how to explain :<
