i don't actually WANT to leave, but i feel like i have to. not forever, but for a while. but if i do leave.. i risk losing everybody here.
the memories i have don't make it any better. i'm tired of getting everything i have ripped away and given back like it doesn't hurt me. i'm tired of being "wanted" by people to get pushed aside the instant i become useless. when someone new and perfect came into my life, only now i gain traction. truthfully, if i had to choose between my popularity and her, i'd choose her. if i influenced you to make dark content, or do anything evil, i'm so sorry i failed you.
