So. Now what? All of what I said was genuine, and true. But it needed to happen. I think, I've been holding back floodgates for to long. I'm perfectly fine for a few days, then messed up for one. Then the cycle repeats... I think. I'll try to stop acting. I'm going to try to be more genuine in my everyday life. I know I may have given you a spook. But don't worry, I am not in any immediate danger... I just think, I was holding back something; colossal. For far too long... And I didn't even know. And Felling of the Craws being deleted, (6.5 months worth of progress btw) was the straw that broke the camel's back... I'm feeling better... But I'm not, perfectly fine either... You will fall... And when you think you've hit your lowest you'll fall lower, and lower still. However. You will climb. And then fall. And then climb higher still... I'll be okay... Though it will take a bit of time for me to return to, a sense of normalcy... I'm not going to delete the previous project... Nor will I this one... I'm going. To try. To be more open with myself. I'm going to try not being a jester... I just want to be. A lady...
