To whoever finds this, hello and good day. If you think this is a remix, it's really not. I had to make a different account to be able to make a new project because my parents made the brilliant decision to add parental controls, not that it's new since it has been around for about 5 years now. Except it hasn't been applied to Scratch until now. See, one of the reasons why I was inactive for a while was because my mom blocked off my Scratch. Yes, I was very much boiling with rage but what could I do? I had convinced her to open it for a little bit but I don't know when she'll block it off again. Let's get to the point of why I created this project. See, I quite literally lied to you and myself when I said that I was getting "better" when I had returned from my break. I'm, frankly, not. I feel like I'm being driven to the brink of insanity. I have no clue if it's my anxiety or just my personality that I'm just getting so mad and getting so irritated easily. I feel like a moving mass of rage. I've also made some questionable life choices in the last month and I'm 70% sure my family hates me. It wasn't anything necessarily bad. It was just me ruining my sleep schedule.. which is considerably bad actually, now that I think about it. I've been getting a lot of verbal ab*se from my mom, which isn't uncommon is Chinese culture, and lots of fights have been going on. For example, if I'm sitting at the table, eating dinner with my family, she would proceed to make dinner a lecture. But that's only an example. On a daily basis, 90% of the time we encounter each other is a lecture. Primary example being my eating. I could be eating and she would say that I just lost weight and that I'll be fat again. I weigh about 118.23lbs, just for context. Then, when I'm not eating or eating too little, she would say I'm eating too little. You know, that kind of thing. Another big factor is because my motivation to do something is genuine A—. Ever since my mom blocked off my Scratch for that short time frame, all of my motivation was gone. I had no motivation to do anything. All I wanted to do was sleep and literally dissolve into ashes. Along with my nonexistent motivation, I also have a incredible attention span that sometimes causes me to take multiple weeks to multiple months to finish projects. Jumping back to my raging and irritation problem, I think it started when the lectures became more constant and frequent. Why? That was because whenever I was in a lecture, they were never straightforward. For me, unless I want you to give context or whatever, I want you to be straightforward. Why? Because unless I want to context and you want to give context, it's a waste of time. If you want to give context and I don't want context, please just give the context to others when I am not around. If I want context and you don't want to give context, I typically won't push you and respect your wishes unless it's something that is tied to your mental health and well being. So, yeah. Now, see that question mark in the title? Yeah, it's very obvious and you might have questioned it earlier and you probably know what it means. So, for me quitting, there's a 50/50 chance I will quit. But that'll be determined on October 11 since I want plenty of time to figure out if I want to stay or not. I'll still be on before that date, finishing Art Contests, waiting for their results, or just doing something. As for the future of where I stand in One Last War and TRIMESENCHYME, I quite frankly will need someone to help me with battleground things since my shrinking brain cannot keep up with fights. Anything RPG will be a challenge for me, though I am willing to join any. ARGs I do have a better grasp on. If I don't quit, I might start one, I don't know. If I quit, then I might leave my ideas to someone. Only time can tell. Now then, have a good day/night!
