Sigh. what is wrong with me, I'm attached to online friends, I feel like mess up online interactions just by being myself. I want to change but I can't, there is something wrong with me. Most likely trauma, who knows. Bruh I went out to eat today and I ate all my food this time because I was hungry and my mom jokes "I should make you run around the blocks a few times"....I told her I felt fat before, that things like that make me see myself as fat. I always get called fat by my friends I met on the school bus... Am i?..geez I wish someone told me the truth. To be honest, I will never feel I guess. Just...call me hacklord at this point, or moth, I like hacklord more.. I'm nothing without my fictionkins because many of my personalitys are based on them. Every time I feel like I do something wrong, it's another claw grabbed me and dragging me down
