yeah i broke my multi month clean streak its deeper and more than ive ever done before and it huurrts a lot no one had the politeness to tell me what relapsing was. no one warned me of this im upset at myself i dont think im gonna have the motivation to post much idk how long itll be till i start posting again but im gonna be online still i can feel myself slipping back into the mindset i had like last year im terrified for school to start again i really dont wanna see her
