VENT: I just realized I’m super annoying! Reminder if I annoy you, tell me to stop and I will stop talking cause I totally understand. I also don’t get it why I hate myself for things I deem “embarrassing” and if someone else does it I wouldn’t think of it that way. I always feel like there’s eyes watching me when I trip over my own feet and get SUPER embarrassed. I always feel embarrassed when my bangs fall out of my ponytail when I exercise and have stupid looking hair. I feel like my hunchback is ugly. But if ANYONE else did those things I wouldn't judge them for it but when I do it I ALWAYS feel judged. To the clothes I wear to my hair and to how I even walk I feel judged for something. Even online I feel judged and I don’t even know from what. I’ve been feeling stupid lately. I’ve been feeling like an outcast. I’ve been feeling babied by people because I just…cant do things I guess. I feel like all people praise me for is creativity. Don’t get me wrong I love those compliments but it feels like the only one I get. I rarely get ones about my personality or that people like talking to me and being around me. I’m always viewed at as “weird” even by my own friends. I feel like no one thinks more of me as the artsy weird kid…I don’t even think of myself other than that anymore to be honest. I just feel like dog water right now. Good morning/afternoon/evening/night and thank you so much for reading. (Virtual hug)
