This writing has been updated, with more things added. THIS IS EXPLAINING A LOT, SO IF U WANNA READ ALLAT PLEASE DO. I would like you guys to do that. Also, before you read anything, all of this is my opinion and what I know I did myself. Feel free to say how you feel but please don't get mad at me for saying any of this. hello smoovees. I might not post anymore, I'm considering stopping this account but I don't know what to do. I still love talking to you guys and I like making the stuff I do but recently alot of controversy had just happened between me and a couple other ppl. I will not say names for multiple reasons but if your someone who was in it I just want to say I'm so sorry for what happened and I just hope u guys are living best. I honestly don't even know what to do with this account because I don't feel comfortable using it anymore because I feel like I'm just going to be judged for anything I post that might be the slightest on the vent side. please don't get upset at me for this but now I kinda feel like I'm going to get judged for a lot I post and do on here. I feel really bad for posting that vent and I guess I'm problematic now (?) because of the things I've been told. (pls don't get mad at me for that.) Sadly, I can't say what happened too much because I'm going to get judged or smth again, but all I have to say about it is that I posted a vent with some intense bad feelings in there about someone, which they found out, and i shouldn't have done that because they and another person hated the fact I posted a project to share my feelings about something. my best friend cared to ask what happened because that's quite literally what a best friend does but I guess I was "dragging him into my problems" somehow. I told him what happened and literally nothing happened after. I never asked for anyone to go on there and try and get them into my problems. I posted it to get my feelings out, but idk. I'm probably in the wrong. just to put it out there, It's not like I think I was the only one affected by this but I just wanna explain how I feel about this account and the stuff that happened, not all of it tho. just so u guys don't think I'm selfish. I really hope I don't get flamed for sharing this because I don't mean to spread it around but I'm mostly talking about my account rn. I don't know how I'm gonna use this for now, but just right now I don't think I'm going to be posting anything anymore. I might reply to some of you if you talk but I just can't do allat on here anymore because I don't know if I can. I don't really have the motivation anyways because I don't want to post while people r getting mad at me. I am very sorry for everything that happened, and fyi I took accountability for everything that DID happen in the situation. And I am right now. I just hope I don't come off wrong with this and that u guys understand. I think this account won't be still going for a while just so I can heal from everything that's happened. I haven't even healed from a past situation yet, and honestly, I am so grateful I have you guys to talk to and that if I share my feelings on a vent post that some of you guys will be there, but probably forever or for a very long time never expect a post slightly sad ever again. I cannot keep falling into the wrong for doing things like this. Yes, the vent was towards a person in the project. MY OPINION just gonna say that, I am NOT crazy about this person in the project, the topic was about them and someone else,but it was mostly about them, I don't know what you expect to see otherwise. a topics gonna stay around the topic, but that's my opinion, no harsh feelings of course. I really enjoyed growing this account and I thank u all for being there to help grow it and I hope I can come back to making motivation in time before smt happens. like I said, I will still reply to you all but I am done posting for some time. I want to say so much more but I dont know if I can because I may get judged. So that's it for now. love you smoovies, stay safe, and goodbye.
I would like to add that I will not be able to be very active for some time due to a lot of problems but I would like to try and talk to u guys still! I hope this information clears things up. I will confess I don't really wanna work on my mental state but I think I have to. I really hope the people who were involved in this situation in the instructions can forgive me. I hope things can work out again soon.
