Ive started connection with my teachers, and honestly, they're not that bad. My social studies teacher is my favorite though, hes really funny, and wears a purple wig to the sports events. I honestly vibe with them. BUT its not all so sunshing and rainbows as it seems. Ive genuinely hit depression. At first, it wasnt so bad. But Ive ended up quiting drawing, animating, etc. Ive just...given up...I dont know what to do anymore...all I do is write and write in my stupid journal about my "feelings" and thats the only thing keeping me sane. Im so bland. I dont know how to start a conversation. I just sit/stand/walk their awkwardly like the sore loser i am. Im scared my friends will get bored of me...but honestly I don't blame them. I wouldn't want to hang out with someone like me. My irl friends aren't helping at all either, they dont need to get caught up in my mess though. Its my mental state to deal with, not theirs, I dont want to ruin their day because of me. I honestly dont know what to do anymore though...Ive just lost everything that makes me...ME...I dont know why Im honestly writing this to yall, its not like the 5 people that watch out of my 120 something followers cares anyway. Anyways have a good day, I hope yours is filled with love and joy, and if your in school, I hope you make cool new friends! (Sorry for the paragraph, if you read all of this, just know its my problems, not yours. Dont get involved. You dont need too, because Im handling it (I think))
