8/19/26 9:39PM ...................................................................................Wow 2 vents in 1 day? lol I was getting cereal (yea, it tastes better at night imo) and my brother heard me! He said "Gracyyy!! Are you eating cereal??" I told him yea, and he said "BROOO! You're so selfish! We don't have a lot left!!" So I lost my appetite! ^^ And I went up to my room. He came in and said "Look, ily, but stop eating all of it! Thats so selfish!!" So I apologized. Few mins later, he came in again. "Hey...I'm sorry for saying that earlier.. You can eat as much as you can. I already eat most of it." I told him its fine, and he said "Are you sure?" and I said yes! I know he was really sweet and nice about it, but I rarely eat. I have a fxxking ed, and ik it. It's BN. He says that and apologizes after it. But you should know by now. My hands shake when I try to eat, I st@rv3, I purg3. And you dont see that. Because I want to make sure you don't. Mom and dad saw me on the treadmill, and they said "Aw! You're working out! Good for you!!" fym 'good for you'? Ik its supposed to be encouraging and stuff, but.. Then my brother said "You gotta be on there for at least 15 mins if you wanna burn some fat." Dont you think ik that? I hate it. I hate looking in the mirror. I hate being in a swimsuit. I hate that it's not the clothes that I wear, it's my body, I hate the number that I see on the scale, I hate being in my skin. I hate being me. ~Gracy~
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