Aug 23 2026. 1:24 AM .................................................................................. Its coming back. That version of me is coming back. I know it. I feel it. I feel the heavy weight on my chest that I can't explain. I know it's coming back and I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. God, I thought I was getting better. I really, really thought I was getting better. How utterly delusional of me. I should know by now that it always comes back. Always. That stupid, stupid, stupid side of me. The ED, being insomniac yet still staying in bed till late in the afternoon, overthinking, silent, purg3!ng, scratching, r3l@p$!ng, dizzy, bed rotting, tear-burned version of me. And I want it to go away. I was feeling better. I was getting better. I WAS getting better. That's what it felt like, at least.. Clearly not, though. I miss my gf already. ..................................................................................
Feel free to vent here, it's a safe space. I'll try to help & give advice. I'm proud of you guys who are staying strong and holding on <33 Keep going <3
