Aug. 25, 2026 12:13 AM .................................................................................. Yay school again. I hate it. I've been dreading it. I beg my mom to stay home. She won't let me. 'Work will pile up' she says. I drink so many cups of caffeine everyday, to stay awake, to give me energy. I've had so many if seems like I've forgotten how to count. Maybe it's 2-3-4? I don't know. It seems like I don't know anything these days. Drowning my problems with caffeine and music like it's going to solve anything. I r3_1@_p$d3d yesterday. What's wrong with me? But I'm nervous. If mom finds out. If dad finds out. If anyone finds out. They already think I'm emotionally breaking off and isolating myself. Imagine what they would say if they found out. Mom asked me why I'm wearing a hoodie in 95 degree weather. I really, really wish I didn't have to. I wish I could stop. stop crying so often, stop being so quiet. I'm scared. I don't know why, but I've got this weird feeling. And I'm nervous. I don't like it. Not one bit. ..................................................................................
(made a new one bc scr took my last one down) Feel free to vent here, it's a safe space. I'll try to help & give advice. I'm proud of you guys who are staying strong and holding on. Keep going!
