Aug. 30, 2026. 9:51 AM .................................................................................. I'm going to be honest about something that's been bothering me. I feel like a horrid gf. I AM a horrid gf. Why? Because I can never call, never text, but I want to. I can't because of my parents. And for some reason that makes me feel sick. I love my gf. With all of my heart and soul. I want to be there for her. I want to support her. To help her when she needs me. But when she wants to call all I say is "Srry, I can't my parents took my phone :<<" Am I serious? I say that every time. And I AM telling the truth, it still hurts me, because I feel like I'm hurting her by not being there. And I should be there for my gf. That's what gf's are FOR. To be there for each other. And I really, really do try to be there for her as much as I can. I want to. Because I get so fxxxing attatched to the people I care about. And I feel like that's clingy and annoying and obnoxious. And I don't want her to think that about me. I want her to think good of me. I dont know anymore... I just want to be a good gf to the person that saved me. To my reason. And I can't even CALL her because of my parents. And that is just so pathetic of me. I love her so much. It's not her fault, it's never her fault. I don't EVER want her to think that I'm just saying this because I don't want to talk to her, because I DO want to talk to her. I ALWAYS want to talk to her. I want to talk to her for hours and hours on end, and listen to the sound of her voice. Because I really, really love her. And I NEVER, EVER want her to think that I'm ignoring her, or I don't want to call her. Because I do want to spend time with her. I want to spend all of my time with her. She just means so, so much to me. And I really want her to know that. .................................................................................
