I'm crine I'm so childish... so idk why but if I see a friend group online that look nice and chill and they include each other in projects I HAVE to get into that friend group since I wanna be included :c idk if this is like some weird form of jealousy or wanting to fit in I just have to go and be a part of it TToTT also prolly because I've never been featured inside of projects or smthn I just dunno what that odd feeling is? It kinda sounds like jealousy but I don't feel jealous...it's most likely envy then lol. Idk if this sounds like a vent or smthn it really isn't one tho. OH and another reason I feel this (most likely) is because I just lost 2 of my best friends of almost 5 years...for a reason I prefer not to say :T and my friends now kinda don't come over to my house or anything only me and my gf hang out...I just kinda wanna hang out with more people ig. THAT SOUNDS KINDA SELFISH LIKE WHY CAN'T I BE HAPPY WITH WHAT I HAVE THEY'RE SO MUCH BETTER THAN MY OLD FRIENDS ;~; idk I just wanna have a lot of people to talk to...like a community ig...BUT THE LAST TIME I TRIED TO BE A PART OF A ONLINE COMMUNITY I GOT FLAMED TF OUT OF AND I CRIED...so yeah...I just confessed something that sounds lowk kinda selfish lol... HAVE A GREAT DAY MY LOVELYSSSSSSS~
Uh song names ig: An Eater - Matt Martians Pain - PinkPantheress Lucy~ - Corbon Amodio We are made of meat - Halle Uchida Valentine - Laufey
