September 1, 2026. 10:08PM .................................................................................. I feel so bad. So sick. So disgusted in myself. I hate food. But at the same time I want to eat and eat. I've had one meal or none for the past 2 days. Just broke that streak. And when I eat I feel guilty. It's a cycle. Starve, Binge, Purg3. Over and over and over again. Like a stupid loophole that I can't escape. I hate having an ED. No one knows abt it. Not even doctors. But I KNOW for a FACT I have BN. (lmao I sound like a attention seeker rn ngl) I just want to enjoy food. I just want to not v0m!t after meals. I just want my hands to stop shaking when I try to eat. I just want to be happy and comfortable in my own body. Is that too much to ask for? .................................................................................
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