A Sad Farewell at the Curtain Call - Mago1

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Original Name: YO I'M BAAAAAACKKK!!!! Current Name: A reference to a Wonderlands×Showtime event at Project SEKAI -+-+-+-+-+- Don't read this unless you've already watched the project. -+-+-+-+-+- I'd like to take this opportunity to say that if you have already watched the project, I think you could deduce that this project has nothing to do with the WonderSho event featuring Rui3. This has everything to do with my activity on Scratch. As you may have known, I have had an internet ban for a month+ which means I was not allowed to access Scratch at all. during that time, I felt like I actually needed a break, and my stress levels decreased. And as many of you know, my first day of high school started yesterday, on 9/2/26. And ever since I logged back onto Scratch, I had received so much happiness, like "OMG you're back!!" and "Goodness, I missed you!" and "You don't know how much we needed you." I feel happy that you've missed me. And I feel happy that you consider me as one of your closest friends. But the minute I logged onto Scratch after so long, I kind of felt empty, or that something was missing or wrong. I didn't feel the same joy I once felt before the ban. This also has to do with my emotional state. Lately, I haven't known exactly what I want. I've just known I've wanted to make people feel safe, happy, and have a friend in me they can rely on. So the empathetic part of me has taken on more burdens than I can handle. I shall explain. A lot, and I mean a lot, of people had been ranting and dropping their troubles on me, and I had not minded that in the slightest. I actually felt that I could really be a trusted friend and that you relied on me, and that made me really happy. And I have grown very very close to quite a few of you who I shall not name names but quite a few of you. Over the past few years I have felt that you guys on Scratch have been closer to me than most of my irl friends. And I have really liked it and not minded it in the least. But I had always hesitated so much if I lost any sort of connection to Scratch I would panic for a bit. Which led me to sneaking onto places I shouldn't have been going on just to post a simple message to everyone. And temptation wins every once in a while. So I had logged on in a way that could have gotten me in trouble with the school during the summer. And consequences only increased. Not just multiple hour-long conversations but also emotional breakdowns only leading me to feel more empty and hollow inside. Depression only grew, and emotions only shrunk. I felt too connected with a few friends online where I felt like they needed me 24/7 to survive, and again, I'm not naming names. And soon enough the information you all gave me kept pouring down on me, stressed out. If you have read "A Sad Farewell at the Curtain Call" before, then you would have realized-- spoiler alert-- Rui decides to stay performing with Tsukasa, Nene, and Emu. I'm not going to say anything more but this-- I choose to leave Scratch. Now you have every right to be mad, and I know you do. But I'm only 14, dealing with my own life and trying to figure out what I really want because at the time, I was only doing what other people wanted. But I'm only human. A young teenage girl going through her own things. I'm not a super experienced psychologist/therapist. Just a new freshman who wants to make amends with her school friends. This is my own decision. I would like to say thank you , , , , , , , , , , and for being my online friends throughout this journey. and for being wonderful siblings. And for being my best friend for 10 years running and being there no matter what I was going through. I will delete my account two weeks from now, on the seventeenth of September. And now I say, さようなら, with 499 followers, 1088 shared projects, 38 unshared projects, 55 studios, and on Scratch with 3 years and 7 months. -, , , Chloii of , , , , and at 11:29 pm on 9/3/26