high school is crazy because why did all of my freinds get into the cool academically really good school that offers like, 90 ap classes and i missed the cutoff for said school by half a point and have to wait until next year to apply to transfer and i don't know if ill see them all year because i almost never saw them outside of school last year. i miss them so much dude, i was like, so lonely before i met these people and i feel like ill never see them again and i feel like they're some of my only friends that i could be completely open with. all the people at my new school seem fine, im kind of freinds with some of them, but now i feel like if i transfer to the other school next year ill be abandoning them. also to transfer to the other school, next year i have to get perfect grades this year and my biology teacher is so bad at explaining what we're supposed to do for half the assignments, or the explanation is in a google slide i don't have access to, so if i do a bad job in her class i might not get into the other school next year, and there's no guarantee that i will be able to transfer anyways since if more than ~50 people with the same grades as me apply it will be a lottery or something. im in a group chat with my freinds with our school accounts and they're all talking about their ap classes and stuff and their awesome campus and stuff and i feel bad about it but im so jealous of all of them and i dont think i should be but i am and i cant change how i feel and aghhhh i just want to go to that stupid school with my freinds, i just want to have gotten like, five more state test questions right so i could've.
drawing by your truly (me) the words are from montreal by penelope scott special shoutout to my school district for making all of those possible /sarc
