This is a safe place to vent, btw. Scroll down | | | | | | | ~ I just feel outta it, lately. I'm exhausted, everything feels boring. I dont feel like drawing. I dont feel like playing. I dont feel like doing anything, probably because no one is noticing me. I feel alone, for some reason. I have many friends, yet I still feel alone. I feel unnoticed. Like all my effort and time out into this account was for nothing. 2 years for nothing. I come back, hoping for new people to talk to. Nothing. Not even a like. I feel like I have no use for my fandoms, or my community. Things aren't the same as they were back then, I was having fun. I had people I could consider friends online. Now none of them interact with me unless I interact first, and I know that is selfish of me. I dont have any motivation to do anything. I miss my online friends. I miss them so much. I had a friend I called "apple", and we slowly drifted apart. Then age verification hit, and i never spoke to her again. She made me so happy (im talking about roblox), I feel so exhausted even typing this. Only few interact with me. I feel sad. Topics of skewersl1de!! Also, one of my real life friends, who i will not say, I apparently depressed. I feel so bad, I feel like i cant do anything. Everything i do, she just brushes me off. She doesnt think anyone cares for her, but I do. I dont want her to c0mm1t. I feel scared, and at the same time, I feel like I cant vent to anyone because im supposed to be the happy friend and lift eachother up, not me. And I think thats why im selfish. I want people to notice that im not fine. But I brush it off, saying "im okay, im fine." Because I dont want them to worry.i feel like my art is bad, and everything i worked hard for is for nothing. School is boring, yet it still stresses me out. I also have some very personal stuff going on that I will not say.scratch is the only place where I feel safe to vent, because none of my family members or my friends know about it. I want my friends to comfort me, but I feel to guilty for that. And the only person I feel safe to vent to is depressed so I cant vent to her. I'm supposed to be happy. Your supposed to be the happy friend. Now go make other people happy. Destroy your mental health just for the sake of other people who won't acknowledge it. God im so selfish for saying that. I'm sorry.
It's tiring to even vent
