I need a break :(
Yes, this is me hiatusing. Technically I'll be online to read comics/play games, but I likely won't post or follow anyone. Also I'm probably gonna go start a yt channel once my parents let me sooo Kinda overworked too Lil rant [geniunely you can leave, I tend to yap] I'm very stressed from school because I take a lot of honors/ap classes, meaning I get harder work and more of it. On top of that, we had homecoming events this week, which while I didn't get to attend because of medical reasons, I still helped plan before I got injured. On top of that, as mentioned, I got injured. If you're confused, check out my project "hi". On top of that, sports. I do tennis and... imma be honest with you guys... I do trap shooting. Please, understand, where I live, this is a very acceptable sport, and please don't be offended by this fact and please do not think of me differently. I ask this from experience. Anyways, both my coaches want me back playing asap, which makes me feel guilty for being injured, idek why. On top of that, I have girl scouts. We are in the middle of crunch time to plan a trip and I am one of the veterans of the troop, so they really need me at the meetings to help plan for that. On top of that, friend drama. On top of that, I'm questioning my identity/who I am and who I want to be. On top of that, all my teachers and troop leaders and coaches and even my mother are pressuring me about college and preparing a life-long career when I don't even know what I want to be. On top of that, I'm stressing out because the job I would like is very hard to make a living out of and I'm slowly losing hope. On top of that, I'm worried about the state of the country and economy as a whole. On top of that, I have a C in one class due to me missing a week and therefore failing a test, and my parents immediately decided that it's a code red situation and they need to get me a tutor because I'm not smart enough to fix this problem on my own. On top of that, I'm pretty sure I have a bit of Adhd and ocd. I dunno how that works though, because guess what. My parents don't believe in mental disorders like that. Granted, they like to say 'people are people, we shouldn't dr#g them to make them "normal" ', so its not that they just dont think its a thing, but they'd be really mad if I wanted to get tested. On top of that, pubrty (I know I spelled it wrong, sh). On top of that, I'm finding I have major trust issues with anyone and for some reason flinch when people put their hand near me too fast or seem like their going to throw an object at me too fast. I swear I'm not abused. I genuinely am so grateful for my family <3 also I forgot to mention I do marching band, which isn't that stressful actually.. its fun. On top of THAT... I'm a tad bit overwhelmed. So... thanks for listening to me yap. I'm sorry I'm complaining.
