OK YALLSSSA DSSSSSSS so I still haven't gotten over him BUT I over analyzed texts again and uncovered something insane and it might not be true but its the best theory I have until further clarification he's still ignoring me but thats fine I guess, my friend said it because he giving me space but....... ok I don't really care anymore but kinda ashamed that I still like him a little bit yesterday I watched vids on how to get over ur ex and the chemistry behind why its so hard to let go sooo I'm tryna follow that advice basically the brain feels like its dying because a big chunk of affection just disappeared so its not that you want ur ex back its just the only way ur brain interprets it, and it might say something like "they were the love of my life" or "I miss them so much" if u catch urself making those thoughts then just let them drift by and try not to add onto them, like try not to spiral or pull up memories of them its still hard, random things remind me of him and my heart still jumps whenever I see him and my stomach still drops whenever I remember its over, and I still scan crowds for his face, but I think i MIGHT be getting better I'll try to give him space as well and not occupy so much of my thoughts with him anymore, and I realllyyy need to practice empathy and not complaining all the time I think for now I'm just gonna focus on making myself better(mostly just how I act around other ppl tho) soo uh yea also feelings are temporary so all of this could disappear by tomorrow(if it does then I'll just do another rant) but for now I'm just tryna get over him completely and focus on improving mylef :| more updates soon
kinda experiencing writers block for poems so that's why there's arent that many peoms anymore :/ mouse still icky so thats why the thumbnail is so bad agan
