so i recently finished watching kamisama kiss for the second time for no reason i got sad that it ended, sad that the animation studio made OVA's instead of actual seasons, also sad that im unable to watch the OVA's on my streaming network and then i remembered all my comfort characters and favorite characters (most of my favs become my comforts) will never exist, never talk to me, never exist aside from merch or their show/manga/comic/game, theyll never ask me questions, i can never talk to them, theyll never exist, i can never hug them even though their my comfort characters i dont know why but i just felt really sad, i already had a bad day with schoolwork and then i finished watching kamisama kiss, i was planning to rewatch it a third time, and then i just felt really down so i decided to watch kamisama kiss stuff on youtube and then i found out two years ago in 2024 of december, right when i was in japan visiting my grandpa and uncle, found out a collaboration cafe was happening of kamisama kiss, in TOKYO, right where i was, and instead of making me feel better it just made me even sadder that i couldve went, and found out there was a tomoe and nanami nendoroid, also made me feel worse so i decided to just listen to a playlist, specifically one thats for comforting, i found one called stargazing with your comfort characters, and i listened to it, and started silently crying i havent cried so much in a REALLY long while especially to the point my tears dripped down my face up until to my neck my way of coping with this quote on quote "i can never hug my comfort characters, i can never talk to them, they can comfort me but never with words, never directly to me, for me, theyll never exist" thing is just having merch of them, plushies, figures, art, anything in general that way i can hug them and be comforted
i love these guys i want to thank them someday for being with me and enduring with me in the hard times and saving my life and giving me days full of happiness and memories full of happiness
