Warning ! Romance pan*c attacks tra*ma And anxiety This is my new book Cover is the Star of David … anywayyyyyyyy guys please excuse my terrrible spelling I’m too lazy to edit this maybe I’ll do it later … Shira I Stir the mixing bowl,a lil bit of frosting splatters out of the. Bowl landing on the counter i stare at it hard .. maybe i could will it back into the bowl … no well ok then . I spin around grabbing a paper towel and wipe it up . I grab my phone from the counter nearby and tap into Spotify . Ah yes there it is my baking playlist. I tap the play button and unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield begins to play i mouth the words as i pour sugar into the bowl “ no one else no one else can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten” i spin around the kitchen grabbing the whisk and dancing my way back to the bowl witch hasn’t moved by the way its almost like it doesn’t like my taste in music oh yeah it’s bowl its not alive Plus everyone loves my taste in music. i have the best taste in music. I spin the whisk around beta. Yes the bowls name is beta now. No youre not allowed to judge my phone stops playing its music and buzzes witha call .. Becca!! My very non Jewish bestie! I tap accept. Becca sqeal shira! Hi. So .. oh wait what are you baking “cupcakes!but what were you saying ” She thinks for a minute “oh yeah ! So there this dinner at school do you think I should go its tonight “ I pretend to think then exclaim”uh..duh! Yes you should go !” Emboldened she replies “okay! Pink dress or blue dress” Hmm the blue kinds accentuates her um curves better “blue !” I. Exclaim “Kay!bye bex !” I end the call a music starts to blast through the kitchen again i sniff the air oh! My cupcakes are ready i pull them out of the oven hmm… okay! I approve ! Grabbing the bowl aka beta i scoop the frosting into one of those uh squeezy things um oh yeah frosting bags. I tie of the top cut of the point and begin to move it in slow circles over the top of the cupcake till there i a perfect swirl i repeat this til all teh cupckaes have one i put then aside to cool just as sunshine stats to play Siri i call play my dancing playlist. Playing you’re having playlist she responds. And a bouncy beat comes though. Oh i. Know this song. Uhm uhmuhm whats it called ahhhh oh whatever i give up under my breath i mutter “ahava veshmaha tmid” in my language it means love and joy always and i try to live by these word-im late!! Oh my god i forgot that i had Synagoge this evening . I dash out of the house and slide into my car. Oh yeshu'a i hope i dont miss the service
I stare at my blank word doc. It's assault on my eyes, the blank bright whiteness . I wrack my brain . Oh inspiration where have you gone. A headache begins to throb behind my temples and I close my eyes for a moment and take a deep breath. Then,pop! Of look and idea hello Mr idea please don’t fly away. I jump almost a foot when my sister Tori calls “ zev! Mom says to study the Tovah before bed since we are not going to synagogue today”.I sigh goodbye idea, it was lovely to meet you. I trudge over to my bed and bending down pull out the Tovah. The Tovah is like the bible except for Jews. It’s werid because I go to a all Christian school for boys. There were no other schools around so Christian it Was . Now in bible study class I can’t do anything Because oh joy they don’t have a copy of the Tovah. Sooo I usually just read in most classes or I write. When inspiration decides to pay a vist- geez why is the Tovah so heavy. I trace our symbol the Star of David embedded on the leathery cover in blue gilt. setting it on my desk I open it and flip to the date . Page 459 has something about not worshipping other regions it also has us reviewing the rules for Shavot again. I scoff like we don’t already know them . I shut the Tovah muttering a quick prayer in Hebrew. “ wolf!” My mom calls “ it’s dinner”. Yes technically in Hebrew my name means wolf and sure whatever sya taht it suits my demeanor. I couldn’t care less honestly . Stretching I walk out of my room t shirt straining around. My biceps I brush some of my messy black hair out if my face. Just then the doorbell rings I walks down the stairs and awnser it. It’s my aunt. “Shalom auntie” i say she zev! She exclaims then pinches my cheeks like I’m still a baby . I’m 16 for gods sake. I slide into a chair feeling my chest tighten. With the Beginnings of a panic attack but I take a deep breath in and the feeling dissapates. Yes I’ll probaly have one laterbut at least I have enough time Before it that I. Can spend time with my family”yay.” Isn’t that great for me and guess what…I can only speak Hebrew to them for the whole time. If my grandma asks me to do the dishes it’s in Hebrew everything is Hebrew. Some of it however is more interesting I sigh oh joy of joys Learning three launguages is not easy. Exspecialy English Spanish and of cours rum fluent in Hebrew My little cousin shouts. Zev. Come play rainbow princesses tea party with us- oh i think oh no no no yeshu'a I lowky hate it but I’m also luvin it I luvvvvv my characters sm guys *cackles* My lil Jewish dictionary! 1.yeshu’a means god or Jesus 2 ahava means love…. Oh it said. It in the chapter
