Vent: You would think I’m a girl with expensive designer gifts and I’d be the cutest, glam girl with popularity status active 100%. But unfortunately no that’s not me… you’d think being prefect gives you authority to walk around be the boss be superior but I’m not. You’d think I’m clever that everyone would beg me to be there friend. But they don’t. You’d think I’d strut around the place like I own it come to school in my designer clothing and be the queen. But I’m not. Everyone changes I get that, but when someone transitions into someone they’re not that’s the worst. I used to be cute, glam, kinda popular… I did once have a few friends, I did once walk around school happily-once… but now I hide. I’m prefect but I hide. I’m clever but I don’t speak it out. I have sass but I don’t show it. I have potential but am afraid that ppl will think I’m bragging. I have a life -outside of school- 6 months I’ve hidden away in the library not outside, not the canteen, not classroooms. The library, yes it’s peaceful but I miss it. People chat behind my back, I hide away. I don’t address it bcuz once I did and oof I will never forget that. In my early years of education I didn’t care but now theirs a hierarchy but I’d rather be a nobody- don’t get me wrong it hurts to the bone but it’s my way of life, I don’t speak to ppl unless they speak to me. I don’t answer questions or raise my hand unless I’m picked on I’m not passionate about my fave subjects or teachers bcuz then I’m the teachers pet. I’m a nerd if I study, I’m stupid if I don’t. The world changes and so does every single one of us every single day. EVERY SINGLE DAY. I’ve had a past. But it’s time to look at my future… I can’t bear this anymore. It’s hard. School is awkward, anti-social. Not the fancy, lavish to show school the unshown one. I can’t strut around, il get shoved into the wall, fights regular, swearing non-stop, friends (never). It rlly does hurt but I control my hot tempered anger and focus on my study and walk away at the end of the day. SILENCE IS A VIRTUE AND POWER… Pls support me in this. I do need it…. @meowlicias-x
