I don't know why im getting scared- I should be used to this by now- also my tics have started to last like 30 secs to 2 minutes and I just... cant move- it hurts- i cant really tell anyone abt it irl either- they dont get it- (even my friend who's an irl/fictionkin- he finds it weird- also said friend doesn't respect my boundaries like makes s3xv4l comments of my kintypes when m clearly uncomfortable with it but got mad when I told him I yumeshippers with 2 of his kintypes???? also he excuses said comments by saying "oh I'm talking about a different [insert kintype]!" IM IN A PERMASHIFT IM LEGIT RIGHT HERE YOU CANT SAY THAT AS AN EXCUSE-) I think part of me thinks its over when I have a shift- but no I'm still d3r TWT oh I'm also sick RN so that makes it worse- also unrelated but Im starting to hate getting compliments at all- or being any better then anyone- "oh your so good at this I could never-" STOP- I don't wanna be better then you- if anything I wanna help you improve not put you down- can I JUST be equal to you-? also I tend to be good at things and soother people just don't do them- I dont want that to happen I want to help you learn- im tired of this
