TW - SENSITIVE TOPICS, OTHER STUFF IN THE INTRO. Oh how I h8 GAD especially when its paired with complex-post-traumatic stress disorder (scratch wont lemme shorten it for some reason) (yes there's a difference between post traumatic stress disorder and the other one I have (not typing all that again) -- But anyways I really just wish that I could go a few days without having the nagging feeling something bad is going to happen to me or not being able to sleep because of it more than half of the time, or having the stupidest little triggers that cause me to have dumb panic attacks. Genuinely I wish I could go back to how I was when I was a kid (pre-keros) and ykw rant. why in a lot of countries any grape is punishable by prison,or even the d34th penalty but when it comes to ppl here they usually are able to get off easily, it sickens me. 'like oh sure your never gonna be the same again! Sorry! we'll just drop your ab4s3r in prison for a bit and then we're all good to go!!' like. and its getting to the point where I cant even walk through halls at school without somehow getting triggered by literally something as simple as someone walking too close behind me or someone getting too loud. And yes i'm recovering and yes I'm getting better and have people to help me but its like all of that progress is getting messed up by nothing. and like it's all coming back. and its so embarrassing when I manage to stay quiet in class sometimes during panic attacks and the second a teacher or classmate asks if I'm alright I get it BAD. I JS don't get it.
cough my keyboard on its last breath/hj (IT WONT EVEN TYPE SOME LETTERS RIGHT ANYMORE) IDK I'm tired. (cant sleep tho :T) no I don't see ppl as mouths or eyes for heads or anything it's js symbolism.
