hi j. ik ur not reading this bc u forgot scratch exists lmao, but i still wanna write this bc r has scratch and sometimes uses it. i love u sm and miss u. i hope ur doing better than i am. i still sometimes want to talk to u abt drama or smth. i wish u were here. i cried real hard. our math teacher gave me ur school id. i still have it. they keep forgetting to get ur clothes. its not as fun without u. remember my cousins friend? the dude with pericings? me and i and r and i arw friends with him now. i hope ur proud of me. ive been doing better with my mental health too! i dont rlly hate myself anymore! ik u hated that i didnt like myself. ive been waiting to talk to u forever. its not even been 3 months but i miss u sm. that first week u were gone anytime someone brought u up i cried. now i jst wish u were here. math teacher moved my spot. id prefer to sit alone than with anyone else. they ignore me. ik u wouldnt. i still think abt what u said, that an introvert would love me. ive been nicer too. i have more friends. im crying bc i miss u. i hate that u moved. i hate not being able to talk to u. school sucks now. all i want is for u to know everything. the reading teacher got mad at our class, sub left a bad note. she moved our seats too. i sit with a. and a is dating m. t got moved out of class bc he had his phone and wouldnt give it. god i miss u. i don't remember ur voice anymore. its been too long. i didnt think abt it over summer bc i knew id see u again. now ik i wont. im seeing my favorite band soon. ik that would make u happy. i hope ur not as sad as i am! i couldnt eat for a while bc of it. i kinda jst stopped. someone asked what it was like without u and it made me hate them. someone asked for my number. i didnt give it. ik u wouldnt like this but im still depressed, but its still getting a little better. its the a little worse than before u left bc i became DEPRESSED but im better now. i can take better care of myself now! im still trying my best and ik if i told u that u would be proud of me. i have to stop typing now bc im crying but i love u sm and i hope ur okay <3 love, rae / S.
