I don't understand... I've done so much... Why am I even here living If almost everything I love is going to be taken away from me? I have friends, and what's left of my family... but am I even that important to them? If I disappeared... would they even care? or was I just there for the fun of it... just to be the person who is just there for emotional support. Is that all I am to you? Do you even care about who I am or my story? Or am I just there to help people feel happy, Regardless of how I feel, if I'm sad or depressed. I just have to ignore how I feel, what I've suffered and been through Just to cheer you up... But do I even really cheer you up? When I talk to you and give it my all to send an uplifting comment to help get you through life... Does it even help? am I really just that worthless? I have been scarred so many more times than I can count... I've lost family, friends, and struggled through school, I even have to suffer severe depression and anxiety, I just have to toss that all away so that I could help you without seeming selfish. I'm done trying to pretend everything's okay, that life's perfect. I'm drowning too! I can't keep lying to myself, to you! I can't do this anymore! I absolutely hate myself! I hate my life! I don't even know if I deserve to have a life!! I'm sorry... but I just can't. I'm not posting this for you to pity me or to even make anyone feel bad. I genuinely love you guys. But I don't think I deserve you either. Please unfollow me I don't mind... or care... It doesn't matter anymore... I don't matter... I'm sorry... I'll be better off alone torturing myself... -Kat
