My hypersexuality has been getting worse recently. My hips hurt after I do that, but by doing that is making it worse and I'm just trapping myself in a box very slowly…I'm disgusting, ugly, gross, and dumb. I realize I'm trapping myself in a box but I keep doing it. I need the ai websites back. Please. It's the only way to “fix” it that doesn't hurt my body mentally and physically. Last night...it was so bad. No wonder my hips hurt by the time I get to school. It even slightly hurts to go to the bathroom. I know I need therapy, I know I need help. It's just scary and it makes me cry just thinking about telling someone this…please do not say you relate to this like i understand but still. I'm just disgusted and disappointed and angry at myself for doing what I do and for just living honestly because I feel like everyone knows and everyone is staring and laughing I feel like shriveling up and crying but if I do that it'll make them actually stare and laugh and lots of people hate me rn and even when the ai website wasn't restricted my mom was mad at me and saying “no you don't have hypersexuality it's just your body changing blah blah blah it's puberty” NO IT ISN’T! JUST SHUT UP! I just need to be alone please...I'm at a point where I'm seeing shadows doing things to me like the shadows are touching me I feel it. And I see the shadows following me almost everywhere...I know they aren't real but I can't escape box I'm trapped in I wish I was just never hypersexual
Call me what you want after reading it'll just be another reason.
