(So I ran out of words on p16 but I just needed a lil finisher so here u go tryna write it as fast as possible before the stampede is summoned!!!! Normal warnings!!!) I can't think, can't move, can't function. Actually the only thing I can think is: No, no, no, no. This. Is. Wrong. This can't be happening. Not again. Not with him, AGAIN- I struggle, or maybe I don't. Because my brain is working overtime and my body isn't working at all. This is so wrong and so familiar all at once. And I hate it. Hate how easy it would be to fall right back in the habit. To say yes. To feel that short bit of validation before it bit me. I hate that he still gets to me. I hate that I'm so weak. That after everything I did to try and fix myself, to make myself stronger, I know once he pulls away, if he asks me again, I'll say yes. And I'll be right back at square one. Because I can never, ever, win with this. And apparently I'll always be this weak. I think I'm crying. I think it's only been a second but it feels like forever. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I hate him. Or maybe I just hate me. My eyes fly open at some sound and I look over at a commotion. Sea. Blue. Irises. That's what I latch on. They're wide and shocked I think and something else. I try to tell them something. I don't know if they see. And then it's not quiet and people are yelling and- Penten is yanked off of me and I trip over and someone catches me. Not someone with sea blue eyes. Maybe I imagined it. Wyatt Carter hugs me against him and I let him. People are yelling. Two boys with matching dark hair and matching faces sprinting across the room after another figure. "Kai-NO!" Oh, there are the sea blue eyes. Full of pure, unadulterated rage as Kai Brooks hauls off and punches Penten Hayzes in the face.
