Ok soooo first of all I must warn you that there might be some topics that may be disturbing or uncomfortable so like if you don’t want that you can leave.. I may purposely leave out some details since I think they’re a little personal but I’ll try to involve mostly everything. Idk why I’m doing this but I said I’d do it and I felt bad about just kind of being absent and not spending as much time on scratch, it’s not that you guys aren’t important to me, I’m just not really motivated or don’t have that much time to do anything here, and since my mom has my blocked on my computer I can’t really do much but I didn’t really think that was enough of an explanation since it KIND of makes me sound like I’m just making excuses so.. This is also kind of a vent this was made on my iPad so it’s hard to add anything much here and still have it be able to handle the project- if ts gets taken down I don’t really care idk how many people will see this and i said I’d put up the project so I’m TRYING I might take it down if i feel weird or if my brothers get back on scratch please don’t hate me
on Halloween, my grandma got sick, but we didn’t know what she got sick with, but we had to cancel any plans we had on that day so we could drive 4 hours to her house. She had driven herself to the hospital but my mom wanted to be there so she stayed with her. And then she ended up staying with her for days, and it was just me and my dad and my siblings. We visited my mom and my grandma at the hospital and it was just really kind of hard for me to look at my grandma in the hospital bed because it just made me really sad- Then me and my dad and siblings went back home to our house and my mom stayed with my grandma, and she ended up staying there for nearly 3 months, and my dad took care of us. Eventually my mom came home but she was bringing my grandma with her so she had to sleep in my room, so I slept in the family room for at least 6 months. When my mom came back she found out that my dad was doing things while she was gone and had got himself a girlfriend and was like,, taking stuff that he wasn’t meant to. On Christmas, he left to go be with his girlfriend and me and my mom and my siblings were worried because he was gone all day and didn’t come back until afternoon in the next day. I put this ugly cut on my hand that ISNT GOING AWAY After that I took care of my grandma every day and made sure she had water and food and stuff. But she also had to visit the hospital sometimes so my mom would take her there since she can’t go on her own since she was losing a lot of weight and she was getting weak. One time my mom had to leave her at the hospital for a day or two. That night my mom and dad had an argument and I could hear most of it because the family room is right next to their room, and was separated by a glass door. My dad got really upset about something and he left in his car, and my mom was really upset and I got up, to get water and to ask about it, but she told me to go to bed. I went to sleep but then I heard a loud noise, and then I heard my dad calling my siblings, trying to get them to open the door so he can get in. He was really drvnk and he got in by unlocking the door in the family room and pushing it open, but there was stuff right in front of it and he knocked it over and it scratched the tv and scared the crap out of me and he did that twice, cause my mom kicked him out. Then he was in the garage and he cut off the power. Then he cut it back on but got really mad and starting banging on the door and he broke the glass on the door (we taped it up). They argued some more and I just didn’t get any sleep then. He apologized later and didn’t remember anything but it was fine ig We also found out that my grandma has this kind of cancer that was really hard to get rid of. She passed away in July, and I really regret it since I had a couple of opportunities to say my goodbyes to her and tell her what I wanted to say, but it was too hard for me to look at her or talk because she was in pain so they had to give her medicine so she didn’t feel it but it made her a little weird. My dad rented a house and he showed me and my siblings it and made us not tell our mom about it, but she found out eventually, but she wasn’t happy. We go there on the weekend and hang out with him there, and it’s fun but it just feels really bad. He can’t take us anywhere because the stuff he’s using has been making him fall asleep at random times so my mom didn’t think it was safe. He’s promised. He promised that he would stop but he hasn’t. I’m just really kind of tired of this
