did my life instead of scratch bec I'll most likely never quit on y'all until I die. don't consol me okay, I hate feeling so good cause it 'helps' just for thing to get horrible. nvm I don't think that even possible anymore I'm so done. I dunno how much longer I can go on and talking doesn't help it never will I cant talk to anyone anyways just off me alr so I don't have to feel guilty offing myself in the afterlife .
things are just gonna keep getting worse aren't they?? at this point I cant even hope for it to stop it just keeps going. I don't wanna do this any longer but I keep promising you all that I will stay and I don't wanna beak my promise.
