Do you guys ever feel like you're stuck in a loop like its a never ending loop of feeling left out and never knowing what your friends might do next to make you feel left out or you are always happy and cheerful for when your friends need it but they never know that your happiness is actually you asking pleading for help and comfort but they never know what's actually happening because your too shy to have all the attention drawn to yourself or that you never actually tell that one girl on your sports team to leave you alone because shes hurt you too many times to recover from the damage and that your never able to go back to that young happy kid you were meant to be knowing nothing but how to catch bugs, play dress up, and have an imagination and right as you are about to tell that girl to stop you just get trapped back in that loop of not knowing what she is going to do back to you ever feel like your friends are just people who hangout with you because you look like the girl who doesn't know anything the girl who doesn't understand what their are saying but you actually do know what their saying but you don't say anything because you don't want to cut in on their conversation even if your in it with them
