why can't i just d13???? im genuinely so sick of living. like i even cnt myself and can't even hit an artery but my dad took me to get diagnosed w/ depression or smt. sigh smh also don't say " just go to therapy! " because it costs so much and last time I went, my therapist didn't even help me and now my dad is constantly monitoring, me cuz of my scde attmpts and my mental disorders. my dad also locked my medicine so i can't od, my fake friends spread rumours and etc, gosh... i just don't want to lve. i always throw up my food and its also so hard to eat. nobody even understands and when i try vent to them they just go like "oh! but don't k/l yrslf just for smt dumb! alot of people love you and scde is a permanant solution to a temporary problem!" or just like "Im here for you, stop cnttiug for this and that. don't give up!" and istg those are the worst advice. well its probably my fault anyway for being so worthless. the world just wants to torture me atp this is a cry for help. btw
