…It’s been not so great for me so far, especially about the way I feel about my friends. Originally, I wanted to use my voice in this project, but I kept messing up and my words sounded wrong, so I think typing this would be easier. I get up everyday at 6:30 AM, so there’s not much I could do about sleep. With schoolwork, I have been… trying to manage it more at home. I don’t know if the class is so loud where I can’t even focus or like… do anything, I can’t write anything, I can’t think about anything. I’m slow with everything.
It’s possible I have social anxiety, and my mom’s trying to encourage me to make more friends… I wish I could, I guess, but I’m kind of just stuck with what I have for now. …I just wish I was able to at least make a friend my mom would approve of, who I could really trust without making fun of me. Like, here’s an example… APPARENTLY, one day one of my other friends had pink eye (it was almost fully healed, so it looked safe but STILL), she asked “Hey, would you like to come to the bathroom with me so I could wash my hands?” I agreed and we walked together there. WELL, GUESS WHAT HAPPENED NEXT. AFTER SHE WASHED HER HANDS, INSTEAD OF USING THE BLOW DRYER OR SMTH LIKE A NORMAL PERSON, SHE SHOOK HER WET HANDS ALL OVER MY SHIRT. Literally as I was getting irritated, I confronted her, and she told me and turned over to my main friend and was like “Well, boo-hoo. What’s wrong with a little bit of water?” AND THEY BOTH LAUGHED. Are they serious? I’m just done.
