i feel like a terrible person i see everybody else depressed and feel like i want to be too because it feels like a normal thing people do; be depressed. i actually have the audacity to complain to myself that my life is so good that i have no reason to be depresed that everyone else is, so why can’t i be too? it’s disgusting. i’m disgusting. people should want me at arm’s length. i get impostor syndrome every time i even thing about being lgbtq+. i think i’m pansexual again, but.. theres a nagging deep down that says ‘you’re just doing it for attention.’ ‘you’re perfectly straight. i mean, you’re too young to feel feelings for anyone yet anyway.’ ‘you never felt any feeling thst said “you might be nb” like other nbs..” ‘YOU’RE STRAIGHT.’ and what if i bloody am? because the truth is im so bloody young i’m 11. ELEVEN. YEARS. OLD. I’M A TWEEN. 12 IN FEBRURARY. I AM A TODDLER COMPARED TO MY SCRATCH BSFS. and i felt awful every day i didn’t tell them. so i’m sorry everyone who thought i was alot older thsn i really am. you don’t have to talk to me anymore, it’s ok no hard feelings, honestly. sorry if you’re shocked bye
