i’m so so tired. every day i wake up. i go to my advanced placement and pre-ib courses and get tons of work. i leave, i go to tennis for four hours. i go home and do homework before and after dinner until 9-12 pm. repeat. again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and this is my life. this has been my life for the past two years. i spend the weekends playing tournaments and getting behind on work. or i spend the weekends doing homework. the entire time. i don’t get breaks. i don’t get any free time. i dont get to spend time with friends or draw or read or do a single thing that isn’t school or tennis. i get under eight hours of sleep most nights, which makes me play worse and be unable to focus during school. another day and another and another and another i wake up i do the exact same thing i go to bed i wake up. everyone tells me that it’s really not so long that ill be doing this for! you’ll be fine! and yes. i guess i should be grateful, right? that i have these opportunities? that i don’t have it so bad, really! it’s been like this for the past two years! you must be used to it by now! so just hold off. you’re just a machine, so it’s fine. nothing matters, so it’s fine. you’re not allowed to feel anything, so it’s fine. you can keep doing this forever, because you’re fine. just keep going. so i’ll i’ll find a way to keep going
making this took a full hour. i could have been doing my homework. great use of your time, dacoda!!!!
