I was having a thought, and now I have come to this: Am I a "good" person? Can I be noticed? It's nobody's fault, but I don't fully believe I am a "good" kind of person everyone wants me to be... My friends say I shouldn't favorite my own projects. I'm not mad at them, but I see barely anyone does it and I do... And here is why: All my projects, all of them, I put my mind to them, and I'm very proud of that...Almost anything I put my mind to I need to praise... People don't notice me that often. My DTA took a month just to get 100 views, and only 3 entries. I share over 40 projects in 2 months, and gain 68 followers. I'm grateful for each and every one of them, but yet I see people who don't work half as hard get ahead of me. I don't do F4F, but yet my friends say I should. People believe it's kind, I can see why, but mainly this is why I don't do it: Almost always, when someone asks "F4F?", you say yes. But mainly what comes to your mind is most likely this: "Another follower yay!". Well, do they mostly care about what you do? Or do they have the same thought as you? Do you even care what they have to offer? Is it valuable to you? Yea...that's why I don't do it... Ik sometimes you do care, but mostly you say "ty" and just...move on, and forget. I am very busy. I don't always get time to do must do art pieces... Like hw, I always get things done late... And I have to be honest, I think this is why...PLease don't mock me for this: I have ADHD... It's not a lot, but it's enough to get me distracted easily and stay off task. I feel guilty for doing things late because of this... Everyone is better than me: I don't feel as if I'm good enough in art...It's hard for me to make 1 piece actually... Idk if I am a kind person, but mainly, why? Why do I not get noticed? Is it for doing something that just feels right to me? Is it for being me and who I am? Is it having problems I can't control?
I have no thoughts of leaving scratch, but I just want to know why this all happens like this... You don't have to help me if you don't want to, I understand... This isn't that severe, but the sooner I believe that everything is right, the more likely this won't turn severe I'm not gonna favorite this..., maybe not even like it...
