I'm not okay but I smile on the outside... I helped many people but nobody prefers to help me.... I smile outside but inside I'm drowning in pain.. Would I ever make out of depression? prob no with my family and what there do to me puting me in pain.. School is stressing me out ngl soon I'm in highschool which give me bad anxiety lwk.. scraed for that..... and how I need a needle this year i'm lwk scrared for that prob one of my biggest fears.. my irl best friend gorup prob the only one who can make me laugh.. school work is geting hard.. i'm not excietd for highscool or my needle.. my dog isn't doing the greatest she might have to be put down or she would past away... which i'm worriy about her she been my childhood dog... T_T and my death phobia and my anxiety Uhmm... Maybe i'm a failure in life? Maybe i'm a monster.. maybe I just failed my family and friends and everyone.. should I ask for help? maybe not cause I would reject asking for help irl... But I really do need help i'm clearly not okay... Why i'm such a failure and disspointment.. i'm not okay Hehe.. i'm gonna fail life i'm a failure why i'm in life when all I do is cry and get tired of life.. i feel unwanted from my in real life family.. they hate me..
