As you probably know, I’m a young girl dealing with depression, anxiety, and deep family trauma. Honestly, I just need to vent right now because everything feels like too much to carry. Lately, my dog has been getting older and sicker. I am constantly terrified that she might pass away or that we will have to put her down soon. She has been my best friend since I was four years old, and the thought of losing her completely breaks my heart. On top of that, school is serve stressful. Asleast I have my best friends in my class.. High school is starting soon, and I am scheduled to get a needle this year. I am so terrified of it prob would have a panic attack that day.. Home doesn't feel safe either. My family constantly puts me down, yells everyday, throws things, and says rude dumb stuff things like "I hate you want me to put you down" or tells me to grow up. It makes me feel completely unwanted like I am just a failure and a burden. I am forced to act mature and cook for myself and my older sister, while she gets to do whatever she wants. I just want to know why I can't just be a kid and be hyper without getting yelled at. My friend group is the only thing that makes me laugh, but I am terrified to ask them for help. I’m so scared that if I show them my pain, they will abandon me, think I’m weird, and leave me completely alone. They think I'm fine, but I'm really not. I feel so incredibly lost in the darkness right now, and I just wish someone could see how much I am hurting.
People say time would heal the pain but no it’s donnst… still hurts like flames.. + sometimes they say I ruin they life like how? They ruined mine I did nothing to derseve this pain.. and ofc I have to get yell at for not sleeping… Like how else do I sleep with pain in my head 24/7 cause of you guy’s family… like I’m in enough pain I can!t sleep not my dam problem… I’m so tired bruh..
