She talked to me yesterday. 1:AM I was. happy it was like a lifeline being thrown to me in my darkest hour it gave me hope the hope to carry on and see her and talk to her. I yearn to talk to her. I yearn to fulfill all my promises to her I yearn. For the day I can live side by side with her I yearn for a better home life I yearn to just lay down in the sun with her. I yearn for her to hold me and tell me everything will be ok I yearn for sunny no matter what she says about herself beating unstable or how much she pushes me away no matter what I will always yearn for you I don't care if your unstable I don't care about all your imperfections I love you sunny. Always will I yearn to stop pretending I'm fine to my friends everyday without her was taking a massive toll on me I was trying to put on a mask of happiness and be normal and happy but the more I pretend the more I feel not myself I want to be myself but I can't people don't like the real me.
I find myself looking at pictures of her everyday and crying alot and vowing to always wait for her. I want to help her I want to be good for her. I want to be loved by her I want just us to finally get away from all our troubles and just be together just her and me. Ren and Sunny
