┍━━━━━━━✿━━━━━━━┑ ⠀cherry laurels on the bluff⠀ ꩜ addicted • track 3 ꩜ ┕━━━━━━━✿━━━━━━━┙ ꩜ LYRICS ꩜ i gotta have it collateral damage you hate your parents, so you use me as your meditation i think i love you i, like that you’re bad news wanna be held even if that means being held as captive never feel rested we’re, devils in heaven blow out my candles just cause you know i like the smell fun for a minute then, it feels like business i know you treat me this poorly because you hate yourself it feels good when i cry breathe narcotic kisses as i’m hanging onto life it’s my fault i got stuck but for now i’ll take a hit of your lukewarm touch i know i’m not the victim i know that i’m addicted a hammer to my judgement and everything from nothing heartbeat to the rhythm now you’re taking off your gingham i just want to be wanted the way i want this rainy weather you, can’t make it better flat out ignore me when i’m asking for a bit of help calling your mother wish, i could’ve met her instead you hang up and throw yourself next to me on the couch we skip the frills (frills) then, there’s catholic guilt (there’s catholic guilt) we scream and fight the pieces of us we see in each other (ah) been so distant my, friends think i’m missing i feel so lonely but i close my eyes and break the mirror i pull my hat over your head don’t want you to see my dying glance of regret i should’ve kept you far off but i guess i’ll this - is worth it if i praise it enough i know i’m not the victim i know that i’m addicted a hammer to my judgement and everything from nothing heartbeat to the rhythm now you’re taking off your gingham i just want to be wanted the way i want this {instrumental outro} ꩜ MUSICIANS INFO ꩜ Key: Ab Minor BPM: 121 Length: 2 minutes 59 seconds ꩜ BEHIND THE SCENES ꩜ I've been sitting on this song for like 6 months now, it’s the second song I wrote for this album. This is the most intricate production on the album and my most complex production work ever- i lowkey prefer the instrumental version. I used this beautiful synth loop I found for the opening and everything was just kismet from there. I wrote the song... well... about a daydream that lasted weeks about me getting into a situationship with this guy who was very clearly closeted. I always say I want to be in a toxic relationship for like a month just to feel what it's like- and I was like, "no, I want to be the victim that would be my fault if I got into a bad situation because I'm literally fantasizing about it right now" and so this song was born. ꩜ CREDITS ꩜ Written by: Hart Produced by: Hart Loop: Soundtrap Cover Shot & Edited by: Hart Vocals by: Hart
