Vent: 13+ A Ahha Hahaha Omg im so jealous! I need to calm the he.ll down! Haha! Jealousy is bad. Very bad. So I am a bad person? Well, yes. Among other things. Other than being genuinely the worst, meanest, over the top, dramatic, pathetic, attention seeker, cruel, selfish, gluttonous, narcissistic, and even more person. What’s the news why am I now so jealous? Cause of my mom. Let’s start with a story time. So, I save up money. I am so excited and I got this money saved, I buy expensive alco.hol markers! They work well, look nice and more. Also, a couple years before, someone bought me really nice colored pencils that I still cherish. You would kind of say that I took a lot of work for them (not really colored pencils, but the markers)? Yeah. Well guess what? My mom bought the same brand of markers and colored pencils and a high quality brand of paint pens. They are bigger, better and like amazing! But im just mad because she bought them just because she wants to color on her coloring book cause she saw a fre.aking t1k t0k about it. She bought expensive markers at her on whim just because of a. Dam.n. Coloring. Book. Im a little mad. I shouldn’t be mad. It’s her money. It’s not my money. It doesn’t affect me. Idk… im just a bit jealous. I feel like I want to be my own person sometimes. Or at least a better person. Most of my life, my sister has been it all. Good at sports, excelling at classes, and all the good stuff. I tried something? She tries it. She is a million times better than me. The only thing I could cling onto was art. I was actually good at something. My sister just didn’t want to try because she wasn’t good at it at first sight, or what I think at least. But art is the one thing that makes me someone. That’s why I love attention so much. Why I like seeing comments on here to know SOMEONE is actually listening. Someone… But im just way too over dramatic. And sensitive. Thats probably why im so jealous right now, my mom got better art supplies than me when I’m supposed to be good at art. But I honestly live in my head. I hate my head though. How did I get here? Like I basically fit all the symptoms for pure o ocd. Don’t know what it is? Search it up. I feel like I’m going insane, not the funny kind. Hahahaha. I might be nonbinary. Im genuinely f.reaked. Hahahahahanahahahaha thanks. Thanks for listening to me Complaining like a :/
