₊· ͟͟͞͞꒰➳ Venting Never loving someone before was never something I should’ve taken against myself. I’ve never felt a romantic bond before and when I was younger I got scared. Scared that not loving someone that way would make me lonely forever. And then I found this. There was a whole community of people like me. There isn’t something wrong with not loving others that way, It not a punishment. And apart from that, I’ve had problems with myself. Not a physical guilt but how I handle my emotions. I thought there was no fixing it, I felt so frustrated and upset that I started to think about unaliving. It’s not been long since those thoughts crossed my mind, and maybe that’s why I’ve been growing less and less active. Love yourself. Being too involved with trying to connect with other people destroyed me thinking about my health. Don’t be so focused on “What do they think of me?” Think about yourself too. It was hard to come too but I’ve been starting to heal. Helping my mental and emotional state helped me become confident in myself and that made others confident in me too. You don’t need to be someone who pleases everyone. Just be yourself. Not to the point where you cut off people, just to the point to be able to take care of yourself and still be able to have people and other social connections. I hope people can connect to my struggles and learn to heal too.
