<<{☆"you were good to me" ☆}>> She sat there, numb and afraid, truffle.... her truffle.... gone... what this darkforest's cruel joke? That everyone she ever lived will die before her? Would crafty? Would freckle? Would her kits? Her kits..... Solitudepaw and twilight kit were truffle's siblings. But this pain, this greif for them, for the sibling they lost, was of a mother's, she lived them like her own.... even if they weren't.... they were still hers.... and they had lost half their entire world.... that wasnt stability, that was chaos to them.... sol lost his big sibling and mentor, all in one week and twilight lost half her world. <<{☆ "leaving isnt better than trying"☆}>> It wasnt fair. Not to them, not to their clan mates... not to her, all she wanted to do was live peacefully to curl up with truffle every night. But she couldn't. Not anymore, not every again. Because they were gon, just like everyone else. <<{☆ "growing, but im just growing tired" ☆}>> And gorseshell.... how long till he left her too? Till she was the oldest of her siblings? Or would she leave him FIRST? how long does she have with her brother? How long did she have with her kits? Till they're gone, or she is? What did she do to deserve this? Why did squirrel star have to make //her// mate fight? And why did blueberry call have to k!// them? Why did they think they had the right to snuff out the light of what was **hers** who did they think they were!? <<{☆ "now im worried for my soul" ☆}>> Why did bad things always happen to cats she loved!? What did she do to deserve it!? Was this just some cruel joke starclan was playing!? Briarpaw, sunflowerpaw, Marshbird'requiem, Danceflyflicker, and now truffle trouble!? Why was this happening to her!? She had been nothing but good! Kind and caring! And it felt like she was being punished! Why did bad things always happen to good people? <<{☆and in still scared of growing old ☆}>> Chirp and coco, they burrowedinto her fur with scuttle, chirp was a gift to truffle, and coco was xeir hermit, and now they laid in her fur, because their original companion was gone, and they weren't coming back.... never again, not to comfort her, or to dry her tears, or to nuzzle close to her chest and purr, or to pick fights, or to go hunting with her, or to train Solitudepaw, or tell a story to twilightkit. Never again would she hear xeir voice or feel their fur against hers, they were gone, and starclan took them from her <<{☆ "you were good to me" ☆}>> Her name was hydrangeaserenity, and fir a while that had been true, but now the name tasted like ash in her mouth, it couldn't be more farther from the truth <<{☆"you were good to me.... yeah..."☆}>>
